Tonight was an eye-opening experience for me.
I had done something that I usually wouldn't do: I had put myself out into the world. I let myself act on heart; on impulse, ready to embrace the consequences of my actions.
Tonight I felt those consequences.
If I could go back in time, would I choose to take the same action? Maybe. Would I prepare myself more for the pain I am feeling? Of course. Would I have shown my true personality more than I had in the past? Undeniably, yes.
But would I have stopped feeling the way I did for one moment? Absolutely not. Do I regret setting myself up for this type of failure? No.
Can I change anything about what is already done; in the past? No, sir. I cannot.
I need to learn.
To learn to just let it be.